Rarely

hi awak yang jarang-jarang bukak blog sendiri yang penuh bersawang ni.
Harap2 sihat la ye.
Nnti lagi 2 tahun boleh dtg balik jenguk2 apa yang ada.
Haha.

And.

And stupidly.
I still miss you.
😷

Everything else melt away when I found You.

Subhanallah, it's been a while. 
i'm thinking of giving up this blog. 
or maybe just abandon it. uhh, who cares, huh?

until i get this spiritual motivation from Twins of Faith! Tehee :)
I feel like writing again. 

I've wrote so many crap, yet i still found some were useful for my own reflections.

Due to that particular incident, 
I can barely move on. 
but I try, one at a time. 
Now, I think it has come to an end.

I never thought falling in love could be that detrimental. oh man! 

But!
Allah has better plan indeed.
If I don't fall in love, I won't fall (severely! )
and if I don't fall i won't found Him. 

He is so sweet. Just because He loves me, He won't let me share my heart which only belongs to Him to anyone else.
and little did I know, with trials and hardships He want to show us that He love us, and He want us to only love Him, wholeheartedly. 

Ya Allah, i want to do my best in this dunya, just to back home. 
I long to go there, I long to meet You.
If you find what i'm doing in this life is beneficial for my akhirah, guide me and help me to do my best, but if it brings no good for my akhirah, please help me to get out from this.
Ameen.

I love you Allah, I love prophet Muhammad and I love this religion.
Please grant us Jannah and help us to remember you. Ameen. :)

Jigsaw Puzzle

saya harap dia tahu, bila dia senyum sebab saya.. i completed myself! :)

a repost. 

i keep looking, wandering, and circling at the same place a little while.

until i found you. 

this jigsaw puzzle is now complete.
:) 

:)

:)

:)

:)

:) 

A Love Story

Your life is nothing more than a love story. Between you and God. Nothing more. Every person, every experience, every gift, every loss, every pain is sent to your path for one reason and one reason only: to bring you back to Him.
(yasmin mogahed)

sejak blajar pasal ini..
errr. blajar?
rse lebih bahagia. 

kak tuti punya ayat ni, mmg boleh buat sume org rse cam takkan putus asa dgn dunia, dgn org orang. 
'Apalah sgt dunia ni nak banding ngan akhirat'

kita selalu nak things go on our way. 
kawan kita mcm angel.
sume pun perfect. 
the thing is, mmg kita ckp kita terima seadanya, bla bla bla. 
tapi kan, sbb ape kita masih terluka, masih rse kecewa. 
terluka sikit tu ok la, kecewa sikit pun dimaafkan. kata manusia kan. 
tapi memanjangkan keterlukaan dan kekecewaan tu yang parah. 
wah! :P

Why do we hurt? 
We hurt because we love perfection. 
We want perfect ppl. We want perfect thing. 
Why? 
Because we were made that way. 
He created us in that way. 
Man that love perfection and something eternal. 
Which we cannot find it here. 
Only Him is perfect and eternal. 
and only at Hereafter we can find perfect and eternal life. 
This world, so called dunya is not.
That is the reason why we keep on hurting ourselves. We try to find those perfection and eternal thingy here.
Chill lah dude, ape yang nak sedih sgt.
Dunia je pun.
Mne ad org yg sempurna. Mne ad hidup yg abadi kat sini.
Apelah sgt dunia ni nak banding dgn akhirat-kak tuti.
:)
*copy paste status fb sendiri. :P 

and a reply from such an inspiring lady: 
If this life was perfect, how would we yearn for the next? Let's thank Allah for all this
imperfection of this life, so that our hearts keep longing for the next. Let's strive for the next life, the eternal. **Hugs**

she is such a tough lady. 
macam2 dugaan dlm hidup, but still 'chill lah dude, dunia je pun'
rse cm nak nangis laju-laju je. 

and somehow, i was stuck with strangers. 
we meet, and we fall in love. haha.
and to know how different we are, how different our background are. 
rse mcm gila2 bersyukur.
rse nak nangis laju2 lagi. 

one girl which i tot had a such a perfect husband, had a bad past, problem with her family. abused. 
one boy which i tot live happily as the youngest in family had so much love from the siblings but unfortunately not. 
and list will go on. 
the thing is. Dunya is so imperfect, there is no way you can find a perfect thing here. 
tak kira lah org tu nmpak perfect macam mana sekali pun, it's not. just dig a bit, and you will know. 

the more you learn about ppl, the more fortunate you will think you are. 

come hell or high water, InshaAllah. 
sbb  all this happen because He want us to come back, to return to Him. rely only on Him. :)

Selepas itu.

baru lepas bace blog sorang kawan.

err... kawan ke.

bukan.

just a stranger, but i know her through stories.

somehow, her spirit keep me motivated.

on how to forgive. and forget.

haha.

i'm glad 

The place where i found love! :)

im having a hard time. 

looking for a passion.

tak sangka, i found it at last. :)

alhamdulillah. 

fish and sea. 

saya jatuh cinta.